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Hope Can Follow Despair
Rabbi Douglas Kohn in El Paso & Juarez
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
Dear Friends,
Despair, hope, despair, and then hope again. Today began much more painfully than even yesterday, and continued to spiral through anger, shame, disbelief, and agitation, and then finished on an unexpected and vital, triumphant high note.
We departed for the Otero County Processing Center, an ICE Detention Center in Chaparral, New Mexico, just north of El Paso. We had to leave phones and wallets on the bus. Inside, the Warden and Deputy Warden took us on “tours” of their facility, extolling their efforts to repaint the walls from institutional yellow to white and grey, adding plants to the “female dorms,” the ping pong tables in the indoor rec room, and three outside recreation yards – topped with barbed wire. 580 detainees are housed in the windowless building, each getting up to four hours of rec time a day, 520 minutes of phone a month (calls are recorded by ICE), are known by the numbers on their badges, whose showers only have plexiglass dividers and no dividers or doors on the toilet stalls, and where huge, metal doors close and lock the halls, dorms, “chow halls” and medical wings. This is how recent arrivals to the US experience our welcoming nation? Being dehumanized, devalued, warehoused? Some of the young men looked like zombies – staring into the void from their bunks, resenting the privilege which allowed me to come and visit. At least some young women were doing crafts and puzzles together, socializing, supporting each other, and waving to us. I felt ashamed, angry, bitter, shocked. “Detainee” was a gruesome euphemism.
Afternoon included the further frustration of attending Immigration court, where tedium, frustration and the teasing intermingling of hope and hopelessness washed over the “respondents,” those in hearings over their status. We learned that we were sitting in the courtroom of the most benevolent judge in El Paso, who sports a rejection rate of only 78%. Others reject as many as 99%. Capricious “justice,” at best.
Then, after a poignant stop at the memorial to the 23, mostly Mexicans who were murdered in a mass shooting at El Paso’s Walmart on August 3, 2019, where a local pastor whose daughter was injured in the shooting waxed eloquently to our group on recognizing people for the content of their character, we finished our day at Annunciation House, a magnificent shelter in downtown El Paso.
Annunciation House takes in anyone: the sick and those recently released by ICE, those waiting for a bus ticket to family in the Midwest, and those with broken legs from falling off the Border Wall. Supported by donations, its walls were freshly painted, its guests were cooking dinner and doing laundry, and because 1000 unexpected Nicaraguans had arrived the day before, today it accepted more than its max, putting cots in the chapel and doubling up on its beds with new, clean sheets. Our group of rabbis were so moved that we initiated a fundraising drive right there (and I emailed our TBJ knitters for a load of hats for Texas), that we raised thousands of dollars, rented a vehicle, and will do a late-night shopping run to Walmart to stock them with winter coats, underwear and fresh food.
This week in the Torah Joseph dreamed his dreams, and was rewarded for his dreams by being sent south of the border to Egypt. Such can be the reward of those who dare to dream. But, not all...
Yes, some days are days of despair. And, some days end in hope.
With Shalom, Rabbi Douglas Kohn